No email last night which is probably a good thing. I did not stay at home. I was too afraid to be there in case he turned up. The call from my step father has had an effect though. There has not been one phone call or text since they spoke. Staying away last night was a good idea. I felt much safer away from my own flat.
Today at work I received the email. The first past was about the business and was formal, as I would have expected. The email went on and was full of sadness and still anger at me.
'Our dream has ended with such a level of aggression on your part that you have destroyed the memory of a life we once discussed.'
The idea that it is ME who is aggressive is unreal. I have been going through the toughest time making this break from him and cutting contact which is what we agreed on Monday and it is ME who is aggressive? This sentence literally left me in shock. I suppose though that my lack of contact is in his eyes aggression as I am depriving him of the attention he wants from me.
He went on to say how sorry he was it had ended like this. I too, am incredibly sorry and wish it did not have to be this way. I want to say to him - I asked for space and you never gave it. I want to say - this is necessary as you left me with no alternative. Yet I cannot say any of it. I will remain silent and rebuild my world.
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