It’s a funny week this week.
I received an email saying the contract had been signed for some work he
had been working on for a long time. It
needed by signature to make it happen as the company is still, for the moment,
in my name. He said ‘I couldn’t have
done this without you’.
The irony is enormous.
I am not sure he could do anything without his feed regardless of where
it comes from. The need to be looked
after, appreciated and reminded of his brilliance is the feed to his ego that
drives his fulfilment in the feeling of ‘self’.
I did indeed keep feeding it and I hope on some very small level that
truly he feels grateful. I have sacrificed
an enormous amount of me to help him get where he is.
And today I have woken up feeling melancholy. 5 emails of documents I need for the business. Nothing else, just his name 5 times in a row in my inbox. I am stronger each day and know that when I finally sign over the business I can be completely free. I am counting the days but don't even know how many to count. I wish I knew when it would be out of my hands so I could mentally down to freedom.
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